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Wednesday, April 28, 2010 || 12:59 AM
chak ! i'm back ^^let's see what i do today . ermmm ....
i go skolah , BORING ! i tersleep pt class during my history lesson ~_~ ngantok seyooh !
yesterday , OTP ngan bby . bored jgak ! bby dont know wat to talk . i got this BAD feeling which i damned deep inside my heart . i'm avoiding all those feelings cause i dont wan to FIGHT with you ANYMORE ! i just hate it , hate it so much . when u dont even have the initiative to mcg me at all . why must ME ? why must I'M the one who MUST to mcg you ferst ? when i talk to you OTP . its like , u r so NOT IN THE MOOD . tell me if you do , cant you ?! i know its part of my mistakes too , cause i don understnd you at this situation . not like i tknk understnd you or whatsoever , but . i just DONT WANT and i CANT accept this . do i NEED to give in EVERYTIME ? do i ? if i had to , tell me please so . and i would GIVE IN everytime , as all you want . i don wan this to repeat again and again . yesterday after i put up . i was like staring at my phone . waiting for your mcg . kay , i know you told me to mcg you ferst . but i sengajer buat gnik . i nk tau aper you buat klau i tk mcg you . i got all those harapan for you to mcg me . an hour past , yet i dint even receive 1 mcg either . i cried and i lay at my bed . staring up . did you EVER CARE ? dont you ? i was like damn fcuking tired until i slept . and at morning i saw ur goodnite mcg . why must you mcg me gudnite , by not asking me why i tk mcg you ?! okay . i dont know , and i dont even have a clue what are you doing for that 1 hour at ur house ?! until its SO hard for you to even mcg me ONCE . i don wan this to get on more until it all crashed . i got to stop it now bfore its over . i had forgiven you and forget about what happend yestreday . and its seems like you DONT CARE ? true ? okay . easy talk . i don care TOO ! game uh . klau u tk mcg , i pon tk mcg . amcm b ? fare tak ? i think so huh ?! and today . its like we're no longer MESRA like bfore . we're not as sweet and easy going as what we are bfore . i want it too . i don wan to give in again . i want you , ur turn ! but seems like , it wont ever happened again . did u ever realise ? the way we talk OTP and the way we mcg bfore its TOO MUCH DIFF ? so much different . myb you dont realise it ? i got nothing to do more . all i can do is to HOPE for the best on our relationship . may god bless us . amin .
a true love , what does it means bside having you and letting you go ?
you're the answer .
our 5 months is coming . but can we go far again ? myb more far ?
i wan you to realise all ur mistakes . i've realise mine . and i'm sorry .
i tried to change , not to control you anymore , but you dont let me to .
i know and i believe you .
you love me , dont you ?
i love you too .
more than you do baby ...
~ 10120 , loves ^^
his the reason why to my everything . and he's the reason why i blive in LOVE .
and , thanks to god , i have him to be my life partner .
he;s mine . my everything .
my future husband , maybe ?
i just cant get my attention of him .
I LOVE HIM , i do .
i miss him too :'(
and i wish that this year"s new year , i can celebrate with him at marina bay again .
oh god , can you fullfil my wish pleasseee ? :'(
