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Sunday, May 30, 2010 || 10:36 PM

nia , congrats dah ader mataer . wish you both lastlong okay ? nia , jger die baek2 tauu ^^ btw , IMYTOO . tk bedek .

imy all . eka , nia , iqah . all ! this sat . i ngan eka plan nk g TOWN . ikot beb ! okay ? kter enjoy . but please i tk cuci mate punyer org eyh .

nmpknyer , mcm smuer dah ATTACHED , jer ? hha . kn ? yay ! LAST LONG you all . eka jer . tgah process kn ? hha .

attached jgak luh tuu kirekan . hha . wish you all the best deary .

sorry i jarang update . busy dgan SpiderMan . hha . bkan lupe kwan okay ? this sat . eka , i tk paitao . i promise .

tuu dorang uh you sroh jgan paitao sdah kay ? iqah , try dtg spore kay ? we all rinduu kau tau :'(

meh kter enjoy kay pt town ? kter amk gmbr bnyk2 okay ? hha . tk sabar seiyooh ! nk pki bju aper pon i tk tau sey . aiya .

~i love the way i lived my life when there's you SpiderMan . you're the best among of all . trust my words .

i love you more than i does to love him bfore . whats past is past . now , i'm yours . only yours . no number two . only you .

iloveyou , dont worry . i wont go away . but i'm worry . that you will .

~rasa ini sguh tk wajar namunku ingin ttap bersama dia . untuk selamanya . cintaku kn slalu bersamamu , meski kau tercipta bkan untukku . ku ingin bersamanya , ku mencintainya . sguh mencintainya .

kay . dgar2 i dah ader two spammers bru . biarlah . dorang no life . satu nmer Green Goblin yg satu lgy plak nmer Puki Kau . buat kekek per korang ? brani spam , tpy muke korang ltak mner ? btw . i nk tau . korang nie ade konek ker ader pepek , huh ? ker due2 korang tkder . OPPS ! hha .

reply to Green Goblin tersayng , nie lurhh kn . you tk suke eyh i pgel mataer i spiderman ? asl b ? btw , you sape ? nk knal2 tk . biar nnty i bgy name yg lgy sedap drypade Green Goblin . saper bgy name tu ? mcm nmer monster sey . hha . soorry luh eyh . tu name btol you eyh ? bleh tau tk , asl mak bpak you bgy nmer tu ? green goblin bin ker binte aper ? hha . kesian eyh awak . awak klau tk suke , bleh ttp mulot kn ? btol tk . nie awak spam psal awak tak suke .you tk puas hati kn i bgy nmer mataer i spiderman . this is my life , you saper nk halang ? btol tk ? i wont change . everyone has their own description of thei lover . btol tk ? mcm example . ader org pgel mataer dier bby . so , aper salahnyer kn ? bby pon nk step mner nye bby . muke dah bby tue . btol tk ? everyone has . but if you dont . try it . ker you tuu yg tk laku ? opps . hha . tk laku eyh ? kesian luh . HAHAHA . asl awak tak brani ltak muke , tpy brani bobal jahat psal org huh ? awak nie dry planet laen eyh ? takot tunjk muke ? muke awak tu burok sgat ker ? saye tau luh mataer saye nie kn mmg muke bkan mcm peter parker . tpy saye nyer psal uh . btol tk ? beh awaknyer muke tu berupe manusie ker tk ?

to puki kau ku tercinta . awak nie asl ? tk suke saye mataer dgan ein ker ? awak nie asal usul dry mner ? aper awak ckap ? ein buang pkai saye . klau mmg aper awak bobal tu btol . awak tunjokkn uh . ein buang pki sayer ke ? klau mmg btol , asl tk dry dulu die lpaskn saye then crk pompan laen . btol tk ? and asl namer awak puki kau seyh ? muke awak nie berupe puki saye ker ? kesiannyer awak . aiya . saye suke luh dgan awak nie . mcm interesting gtu kn . saye pon mcm dah mlas nk type nie . saye bgy awak chance . and satu lgy . awak ckap kwn i mcm bpok ? awak mmg btol wak ? atleast muke mcm bpok lgy lawa drypade muke mcm puki . btol tk ? awak tolong bleh tk jgan judge2 org ? awak cermin luh muke sendiri . and klau awak nk rampas ein dry saye . tu bkan care nyer . awak pndi2 uh curi hati ein jdy mataer awak . klau awak menang . tu tandernye awak btol lurhh tu kn . goodluck sayang .

btw , ingt . ein , sasha punyer okay ? jealous with us eyh ? i tau luh kter kn sweet couple . tpasal awk bobal gtu . ein i punye . hha . kesian de lo ! try your very hard okay , darla ? and btw . eka bkan smbrg pompn . awak mulot tkmo cabul . brani dtg dpan muke uh ckap eka muke bapok . biar saye sodok awak dgan gala . bru kter tgok muke awak ker muke dier mcm bpok ? g berus muke awak dlu okay ? pki sabun mahal punyer . okay ? ILOVEYOU , tau .

~eka . tkmo dgar mulot si sundal nie . timing smer mase . tu mknenyer die online jgak luh bler aku tgah view . babi dier .

Wednesday, May 26, 2010 || 9:01 AM

i miss my eka , sunshine . where you ? tk dpat berite langsung sey . lupe kwan ? and nia too . satu pon tk dpat . i'm sorry for watever reasons . i miss you all :'(

anything just ring ring me okay ? town jdy tk ? update leyh .

anything text my numb sajer . i'll call . bye . tc . ~i sayangg sunshine ^^

btw , people . i'm inactive at all . busy dgan SpiderMan .

sorry yer . i'll update recently okay ? sorry .

Labels: eka bb, where you ? i rinduu you

layout punyer psal i'm awake 0_o

Monday, May 24, 2010 || 10:28 AM

i think i'm going to stick to this layout for sementare saje . cause i dont have the idea nk tukar layout aper ke aper . cerewet luh sey . sumore bby pon ckap layout nie okay . so , i'm gonna stick to this lorr . hha . chck time skarng dah 1.35 am . mseh blom tdo , nk anu layout nyer psal . bsok skolah sumore . myb tk g lorr . hha .

|| 8:36 AM

blom hbes , temporary layout . soo , wait okay ?
~Loves . goodnites sygss ^^

|| 5:49 AM

gonna edit-changed my Blog Layout soon , look out yeah ^^ asyik tgok smer layout jer , kan mendak ? i sendiri tgok bleh juling mate ku , hha . kn b ? bleh juling sia mate i ! kk . soon , if i'm free okay . psal sedikit leceh bcause i'm Cerewet . sorry , dearest .
~ IMISSMY, rooster . so much .

Saturday, May 22, 2010 || 8:56 PM

kay , nie pictures pt japanese garden . soon , i'll upload gmbr kter lgy kay ? soon .

i had great2 day with him . last sunday . mcm biaser , he make me laugh till i drop . ILOVEYOU , spiderman . ~ when there's you , everything turn out to be as fun as ever . and i love the moments when thre's you , holding me tight . you're the most sweetest guy ever ,
~ you're the best , spiderman .

psal smlm lter i post okay , lter larhh k . i mseh penat . nari tk g skolah , psal bgun lmbt .

i miss my sunshines terribly :'(

eka eka , i rinduu you , sumpah . i nk hug .

nia , i rinduu cheeks you ! oh god , i nk cheeks mcm you ! kate nk bgy ? bler tu ?

tpy kn , good news ! today , i g CCA . i hope eka g jgak . i g CCA psal i rinduu eka , sunshine i . i nk hug dry dier , NI HARI JGAK ! i tk kesah .

~ i miss SpiderMan so much . wait till wed then jumpe , klau bkan wed , terpakse fri luh sey :'(

boy , you rinduu i tk ? i syg you bnyk dry you , youu tau tk :'(

|| 8:20 PM

heyho peeps ^^

bck from my sweetdreams . nice dream . yesterday bby slack at my house . dier tk tdo langsong . didnt i ask you to sleep you asshole ?! b , bkannyer i nk pakse you tido or what . tpy i kesiankn you . i tgok mate you dah lemek gtu . beh you pakse2 nk bukak mate . i syg you . i tried to force you to sleep , but you chose not to sleep . and i tknk you blek jalan kaki , psal i tau you penat . klau i pon i tk larat walaupon i anu stakat untok org yg i syg . secare terpakse , btol tk ? you nk blek awal , so that i can sleep inside ? true ? i tknk . i nk temankn you . i nk tgok you tido . but then i kept shouting , telling you to sleep . and you fake your eyes . you blek pkul 4 . hati i tk tenang . i tknk you jalan kaki blek . i fham . apersal you buat gni . tpy jgan buat i dissapoint . i halang you jlan kaki bkannyer i tknk you pandang pompan . what i concern is that , YOU ! i tk kesah psal yg laen . you see , when you nk sleep . i tried to make you comfortable , bcause i know your tired . i put the blanket on you , gave you those pillows . my fan . i'm sleeping down thre , melting hot . but yet , i'm comfortable , cause when thre's you everything make's possible . i care and i concern . i've treat you as my only one lover . and thats why i controlled you for going over . i dont need for you to sacrifice anymore . cause your sacrifices is more than i had ever thought , and i know your hurting yet happy cause you've sacrifice everything just for your love . i'm happy too , and i'm proud of you . and thats why i keep doing my best , to sacrifice everything i had in my life . i want to replaced all your kind deeds , your softness towards me . but i dont have the idea , what am i supposed to do ? i want to make you laughed when your with me . i want you to know that ILOVEYOU , so that i would not repeat it again and again .

but its just that i dont need your sacrifice anymore bby .

its more than enough .

~ i love you , more than you ever thought bby .

you're my only one lover . and , ILOVEYOU , spiderman ..

Friday, May 21, 2010 || 9:20 AM

spiderman really does HATE dogs ! ~ soo cute of you bby . hha . and yeah . bru blek jmper si spiderman nie ^^ kay , we took mny2 pic . tpy all at tagged . fb ? err , sorry . fb TAIK ! nk upload bkan maen susah . aiyoomak =.= bkan susah luh . but it was like fcuking slow !

shit shit shit !

~tmrw plan nk g japanese grden . bb , amek gmbr lgy okay ? hha . now i'm not shy lgy ! dah biaser ngn spiderman nie . dh tk malu mcm dulu dah ^^ hoorayray ~

we're going slowly , no fighting like bfore . sket2 gadoh .

now , i nk try tknk gdoh2 lgy . dah ckop kn b ? .

nk ckap psal anjing kn . tktau plak eyh . SpiderMan takot ngan anjing , LOL !

bb . you cute tau tdy . kay . tknk elaborate more . i dah pnat seiyooh ~_~ .

materku dah mcm nk ..... ~0_o~ hha . satu tutop , satu bukak . so .

goodnitesd readers . cahyoos / enjoys .

~loves , sashaswifts ^^

~i rinduu sunshines i :'(

Labels: eka bb, where you ? i rinduu you, you tau tak ?

Thursday, May 20, 2010 || 5:49 AM

i'm just an ordinary girl , and all i can do is to smile to show my appreciation . i own my sweet and decent smile , and i got that figure . but haters label me as 'step lawa' .

everyones does that to attract others attraction , true ?

yeah , its hard to accept their words , saying all the bad things on me .

but why must you said i nk 'step lawa' lurhh katerkn .

people ! i'm just smilling . i dont pose like bitches do to pose .

in fact i pose like i'm one of those stupid person , you see . i know i cnt get the figure that you all does have . but atleast i own my sweet and my perfect lyfe . i dont need you to jdge me . and i dont even need either of your feedbacks about me .

i can judge myself , by not asking you to judge me . i can look through the mirror and try to changed . cnt you do your own business and try to reflect bck wats ur uglyness side ?

yar , guys keep asking me why am i so quiet in school . here's ur reply .

easy to say , i dont want to mix as i want to change the way i live now . and i dont need you to be thre entertaining me . saying i'm sombong and stuffs . i'm not sombong , but its just that i want to chnge . asking for steady ? its stated i'm attached dear . i'm sorry . please luh , don say that i'm sombong or watever . and please , jgan kcau if i walk past . then saying stuffs like "bye syg" or watever . its sucks you know ! nie luh lelaki zaman skrg =.=

then now girls judge me wrong . nk step lawa plak kn . aiya .

what i do ? i dont even entertain them or face bck . and i dont even smile . korang sepatotnyer kner pndi jage mataer . klau jealous , tu dah tndernyer . i got my own perfectness more than yours , true ? i dont beg them to do that . its they themself who wanted to . oh yah ! and i dont even NEED them to do that .

thnks for your comments btw . please do look urself pt CERMIN dlu ^^

cayoos . i'm talking nicely here . i tkder bobual kasar mcm minahrepp . psal i don wan you to judge me minah .

~loves , sashaswifts ^^

|| 5:45 AM

sometimes , your words are just to hurtful for me to accept . all i can do is to wished for you not to repeat those words , and i can only close half of my ears and accept all those words that really maked me dissapointed with you .

|| 12:31 AM

peepos ! i'm not active in tagged atau facebook . currently busy . myb i'll update more here . anything , just leave a tag thre at the chit-chattik box yer ? nk spam ? spam lah kau eyh syg ! i tk kesah . i pon dah pnat b nk layan spammers yg NO LIFE mcm korang nie . so go on DOGS ! hha .
~ lots and lots of loves , sashaswifts ^^

|| 12:07 AM

bck from school ! nari was fcukig bored pt skolah , no friend luh sey :'(

i got no friend pt skolah . eka got her kayaking today , and i was like so the lonely girl pt skolah .

tak style luh sey ! tpy tkper . erza ? busy with her new friends . she saw me , but she left me like that ajer . okay , erza i'm dissapointed with you . and and lets just say i hate the way you does when you ignored me ! mira ? tk dtg skolah ! PAITAO KONEK ! mlas uh nk tgu2 kn dier . janji2 , smuer terbuang . FCUK TO YOU ALL ! i got NO MOOD pt skolah .

its like , no one comes to me when i'm thre standing at the canteen like a stupid person !

okay FCUK , I HATE MY SUCKING LIFE !

eka and nia , got kayak . so i'm all the way QUIET pt skolah . myb next year nk tukar skolah .

school is so sucking LAME nowadays . and i hate my friends ! atleast sunshine is thre . thnks b . i syg you . my old friends yg aku anggapkn sbagai best friend , maen campak aku mcm sampah ! klau tkder kwan lari pt aku . bler ader kwn , lupekan swift uh pt sni ?!

oh god , why must i faced this terrible life of mine .

sunshine , thnks for being thre for me . i appreciate it much . ILOVEYOUSUNSHINES ^^

thnks for the hug just now . love it !

~ i just hate my life when thre's no you .

ILOVEYOU and IMISSEDYOUspiderman !

Wednesday, May 19, 2010 || 7:16 AM

i'm missing my bby rite now . like in a sudden , i felt my heart crash to the ground . and it beats for that only 1 person , and the person is my spiderman . i missed him . my mind kept thinking about him . i'm being so bored , sitting like an old woman , at my rott house . watch tv , eat , bath , sleep , blogging . everything had been the same daily life as bfore , wats diff is that , when thre's spiderman , my days turnout to be happier than bfore . i've been thinking , is thre any other ways to kept our relationship go on ? doing this way , makes my heart hurts by a time we fight . i don wan it to happen for the second time . i've got big scar on my heart , left by me ex . and i dont need or even want you to be the next . cause when thre's you , i felt diff . much much diff . you make my world goes upside down . i miss the way you smile . i miss the way we laughed . and i miss the way you does to make every little minutes we've spend together to turn out to be as joyfull as ever . oh god , is thre any other way to show him that i do really love him ?

tmrw schooling as usual . summer is coming soon ! hooray hooray yok ! bersamaku berjalan2 ! hha . tk sabar seiyoooooooohhhhhhhhh *widesmile* . life had been completely ruined and complicated within studies . "belajar bkin kepale otak aku pecah! nnty klau aku ader brain cancer , aku mrah si MOE tu !" taik btol . aiyoo =.= . MULOT TKTAU JGER EYH SWIFT ! hha . kay nolah ! i dindt enjoy studying but atleats i've experience the way people learned and discover .i wanted to be a sucessful person 1 day , tpy dgan perangai aku gni nk jdy org ? aiyomak ~-~ ! dividing my time to studies and relationships . love and friendships i had , studies i must faced . why in the hell must thre be studying on EARTH ?! cca ? i rinduu having my cca practises . those challenges we face together . and my sunshine eka keep supporting me . nnty klau aku cbot , si eka mulot dah start PETPOTPETPOT ! aiyomak ! menambah kn virus jer pt otak aku ! hha . teachers and counsillors keep supporting me . and they keep asking wats my dream ? my dream is to be a ........... err ? tktau lah kn . umur mseh panjang luh sey . but my mama sroh i jdy model bcause i got that body to pop ! my teachers say so . but actually kn i nk jdy astuwardess (sorry klau slah spelling) . lawa kn dorng ? bleh terbng sner sni . i pon nk jdy mcm spiderman . terband sner sni . i pkai kapal , spiderman pki web dier ! hha . dahluh my mate nk pejam nie . i'll update tomoorow okay , klau ader mood luh sey ~_~ . hha . goodnites and sweetdreams readers .

~ loves , sashaswifts .

~ i miss the way you does to maked me smile .

ILOVEYOUspiderman . IMISSYOUsunshines ^^

his the reason why to my everything ~

Tuesday, May 18, 2010 || 9:01 PM

sorry if i jarang update . so , yeah . let's see what i do on saturday ,,
saturday go rumah bby tak slah . ermm . nothing much to say . had fun after all .

sunday :

go tempat bby . blek ddok westpark . bobual kuat like's no other business . then kiter ddok

pt satu BIG dome biru . we sat thre . bfore that kter g tgok moon dgan mataer dier , fad . tgah hujan lebat , then i go atas rmah p bwak payung . kter pegy tgok dorang dkat blok dkat2 dgan west grove thre . hha .

sweet couple tau dorang . btw "last long to moon and fafad" amin .

yeah . then after that kter ddok2 , bobual2 . i kacau2 tu anjing dpan kiter . then bby PETPOTPETPOT .

bby ckap gni . "b , tkmo kcau luh , nnty dier dtg bru tau"

then i kcau lgy .

tros bby ckap gni "kan kan dier dah tgok kter!"

owner dier mcm syg sgat pt anjing tu . ader due anjing . dgan two owner .

masing2 nyer anjing lah sng ckap ! aiyooo =.=

satu nyer owner mcm tk kesah sgat . satu lgy plak syg sgat .

very the cute tau tu anjing . mcm [insertname] kn b ? hha .

people jgan terase aye . hha .

i was laughing like hell . b , you cute b !

idk why bby tkot sgat ngan anjing . bgy i mcm anjing smer jer ngn kucing ,

tpy klau anjing tu anjing TEMPLE CINONEH dah laen crite dah tuu . hha .

naek buluku klau kene kejar ngan tu anjing . aiyaa . PHOBIA !

dah mcm mimpi buruk .

teringt i psal pt japanese garden tu . hha . bby was like freaking takot bler anjing tu bark pt bby .

strait away bby jump pt blakan i . hha .

he's the one who should protect me , not me protect him , correct ?

tpy tkperlah . tkot anjing kn . hha .

bby pnah skali ckap gni bler anjing tu bark pt bby at that same spot pt japanese garden nyer entrance . "i rela sia b , mati tenggelam pt laut dry mati kner gigit anjing!" HAHAHA .

i love that part . mseh ingt tau tu phrase . haish . ANJING ANJING =.= !!!

kay dah . asyik bobual psal anjing jer . aiyoo ~_~

end2 kter gadoh . WE HAD BIG FIGHT , VERY BIG !

bby , changed like sudden during the fight .

i'm trying to avoid my lips from saying the word break again .

its like , the way you scold at me and watsoever ,

its MUCH FAR harsh than bfore !

the way you talked and the way you scold at me , your unmeaningfull words , that make me deeply lose trust in you , everything that you said with your ways of words all , remembered me about my STUPID-ex .

but after all its my fault why we're having a fight .

i dindt want to start that fight , but bcuse of you and your egoness and my egoness too , we fight .

i'm sorry bby . its my fault too . not yours , although you started it first .

i know and i really understnd why you talked to me that way .

but yet after all we're okay like bfore .

bby pjok i . ILOVEHIM still .

i'm sorry bby if i'm the one who cause this .

he promised me not to say that way of talking anymore .

you see , he's chnged . and that really shows me that he do really love me .

thnks bby . he's sacrifing all he can . its all just for our love .

i know you dont have the mood at that point of time .

everybody has their own way to show their angriness towards others too , true ?

although i hate the way he does to show me that his angry , but yet i know he doesnt meant to do it at all . his doing it bcause he cant control .

sometimes , i'm like that too . people who doenst involve , yet i MAKI them until they hate me .

and its all bcause of your own EGO .

i can see bby is hurting . he's changing .

and he's being more caring towards me than the way he does like bfore .
i can see bby is crying every night . he's changing for the better just to keep our relationship lasts longer .

he's being far more loving and caring right now . i've notice that .

bb , dont worry i wont leave you .

i still need you . and i dont even wished to leave .

i know ur avoiding from fighting again . i understnd bb . much understnd .

after all you've done , i forgive you .

bcause however you're still the best i ever had bb .

you maked me felt wanna stayed within you forever .

~ somehow , i've been wishing up to the stars .

wishing that we will lasts . but will my wish come true god ?

i know that fight happens bcause of my own EGO .

i'm sorry bb . really sorry . i sayang you . maafkan i kay ?

~ i had so much talked on sunday . lets move on to monday plak otey ?

kay . monday i g umah bb .

and on there bby pujok i . i can see bby is trying to hiding his tears .

bb , i understnd . and i knw that you love me too .

sometimes , i can sense that you are faking your smile to everyone .

i know your hurting . me too .

i tknk you merane psal i . i syg you .

its enough for your sacrifices . our love is still strong .

and i still have my 100% love with you . dont worry . no more 99.9% .

i just wished that i could be your last somehow ~

bb , i syg you . i tau you syg i jgak kn ?

lets forgive and start a new one okay ?

kay lets see on tuesday plak kay ?

tuesday lpak with my primary friends . zyzy ngan iqah jer .

mira and shazy didnt tag along as their busy with their business .

not much fun . i miss them after all .

then i g dashed rmah bb . psal hujan lebat gler babi !

kejar bus mcm nk kner kejar train . basah kuyup .

bby was so caring bler dier nmpk i was running towards him .

bby ask "asl you lari ? kn i suroh you tgu pt bustop?"

myb last minute mcg kot .

then i say "mner tau you suroh i lari ?"

tros bby ckap " tkknlah i nak suro you lari kn hujan2 gni."

bb , wipe my face with his shirt .

then we ran across the traffic light . bb hold me tight .

then lampu dah tnjok kn lgy 5 seconds tau . then my mulot petpotpetpot . sroh tkya lari psal dah last minute . then bby hold me tight , so tight and force me to run .

i know bby is avoiding me from getting more wet .

kay . then blahblahblah . we move our way g hospital NUH .

[insertnme] lahirkn anak lelaki . OMG .

bby tu hensem nnty mcm bpak dier [insertname] .

bpak dier jgan blush sgat plak . nnty boxer koyak ! hha .

cnferm dorang happy eyh dah ader anak .

i wished i could have 1 with bby .

~ kay i know , dream on lah swift !

b , kter ader junior kn ? hha .

at thre i saw [insertnames] .

kter blek kul 8+ gtu .

then dah blahblah .

gtu jer .

tgan i dah penat dah nie asyik type2 jer . aiya =.= .

and today tk g skolah , bgun lambat . hha .

i miss sunshine i eka . eka tmrw give me hug okay ? i'm craving for your hug .

dah 5 hari tk dpat hug sey :'(

~ and lastly i missed my bby . kner tgu friday bru bleh jumper sey :'(

b , ingat i sayang you .

Labels: i rinduu sunshine i :'(

|| 8:02 AM

i love the way i lived my life when there's you

i had so much fun when thre's you making me laugh .

i dont regret for loving you the way you are treating me right now . i dont regret saying the word ILOVEYOU everyday , and i'm not tired of it at all .

sometimes , i find it hard to blieve that you are mine till now .

although people , strangers , or enemies keep saying that we're not meant to be . who says so ?

that are all just KONTOL words . btol tak b ? hha .

i dont care what they say , i'm in love with you ..

nothing comes greater than the rest that comes with your embrace .

although for so many times you had put tears on my face , but yet i still understnds why you're doing this . you're doing this bcause you are trying to get us bck to where we're belong like bfore , dont you ? i wish we were like bfore too . the way you make me smiled , the way you make every minutes we had into my sweet dreams . those tears you turn into a joyfull experience . those stories we've shared . everyting ! those promises we made , remember ?

i dont need the pain , once or twice is enough . you dont need the pained too , dont you ?

time seems to past so fast . and i dont regret spending my 5 months and even more with you .

i miss you though for just a minute you're gone .

ILOVEYOUSPIDERMAN ^^ true .

~ lots of loves , sashaswifts

Monday, May 17, 2010 || 9:15 PM

inactive . sorry babe . nk link ? link sayer yer ? mcg me , klau nk sayer link . saye pon blom hbes link link link nie ^^ hha . anything mcg bkan ring , klau ring saye tk dpat link awak . cime kasih for reading my blog post .

~ loves , sashaswifts :)

Saturday, May 15, 2010 || 6:11 PM

thre's nothing much to say , as i got this symptoms bck . its not your fault either why i'm like this . its my own fault . every little thing we had , every little thing we had laughed bfore , CONFERM thres gonna be FIGHTS between us where i hate that part THE MOST . i know you hate it too , dont you ? i'm not controlling but i preventing it . my fairytales , you make it alive . i love all the things you do to make me smile like i was bfore . i'm trying to get over you . but i just cnt . i hate saying all these unmeanigfull words , i wanted to write it more , but i dont want to , bcause i don wan any more fights with him . blog , is my only way to express all my feelings . i cnt bee xpressing my feelings at him when he's the one who cause me . correct ? so here's at blog , the only way . i got friends , but they were busy with their own works . i got nobody to hear me . but i love bby , when he's the one who's thre to hear me . i just hate this part where we must SHUT each others mouth .

~ yesterday meet bby , fun atferst . sad at last . sorry bby , if i'm the one who cause this . its just , all its my fault . i'm asking you not bcause i'm finding for troubles , but i just want to ask for the confirmation . but yet , i still got that scar until now . ihateyou , but in my heart thre's still you . oh b , i'm sick of this .

Friday, May 14, 2010 || 7:36 AM

meet bby just now . thnks god i dah okey ngan sunshine i eka . cmer nia jer . susah sguh nk pujok nia . nia , i sorry okey ? i dah tkbleh buat apaper . wats past its past . i wish i could turn bck time and would not rewind my mistakes again . i know a girl like you , its hard to forgive a person . forgive and forgt okay b ? tpy klau tknk , i tkbleh pakse , but to accpt . all i can say is goodbye . tats all . i love you still nia . you sunshine i jgak . how can i possibly lpaskn kwan sebaek you stakat psal this stupid thing ? i know for me and others its just a small matter . but myb for you its BIG .

okay larhh . forgt it . i dah tkbleh buat apaper psal nie . tpy cnferm2 we all akn rindu nia :'(

jmper bby , was fun just now . tpy mendak at ferst . ddok bwah blok i bobual2 . then jlan pgy gekpoh . go thre tgok2 jer . kter ternmpk 'mas' [some people knoe] . kter lari psal kter mlas nk bobual nan mas . lari masuk arcade . i was like fcuking ketawe . hha . its funny psal mas dah kejar2kn kite . then mas tk nmpk kter .

after that we go PRIME . jlan2 , tgok2 jer . nmpk bende anjing , then i ternmpk muke bby pt sblah . bb , you know i know kn b ? hha . bdaey you i belikn beros dgan shampoo tu eyh b ? hha . after all . it was fun luh sey . insyaallah tk akan ader masalah antare kter lgy kay bby ? i dah tknk b . i tau you pon tknk kn ? i syg you .

~nothing to elaborate more . rinduu bby i . tomorrow jmper bby lgy ! yay !

and and , eka . i sorry for watever okay . i sayng you . btw , thnks for the spiderman song ! hha . ILOVEYOUSUNSHINE ^^ wed , give me hug tight2 otey ? i tggu !

Thursday, May 13, 2010 || 11:38 PM

i dont need others just to get beyond you , cause once i got you , its more than enough .
those smiles you brought to my life , those laughters you make me missed , those hugs , those words , those tears we shared . the day we begin our love , will nver be forget . ~101209 .
let me filled ur life with loved , may i ? love had not been this wonderfull bfore you step into my life . special in a way , the person who loves to pull my nose and bully me .
the sweetest person i had ever own among my STUPID ex's . i'm craving for your love . holidays is coming soon . i hope for tht 1 month we can still move on . cause when once we're together for everyday , thre's gonna be a tears for every laughter , and thats a sign that we'r having a big fight . i'm still holding on to our's ; for 5 months and more . i want to hold it longer , may i ? don force me to let it go . i need you after all . i need you for everyday i had in my life .

~ i love you spiderman ..

bbyg , i'm sorry for wtever . if you think you're doubt about it . i'll let all the blames on me . if you think i'm in fault , i cnt force but to accept . let i stay this way will do . i miss you all , i swear . i miss the way you maked me laugh . and i miss eka so much . i nak hug :'(
today it tk dpat , and i dint even saw even a sgle person of you at school just now . i miss my bbyg :'( wednesday is much too longed for me to wait . give me a called anytime okays ?
I LOVE YOU ALL , ~eka sanchio , nia sanchio , erza noshiywah , iQah nosiywah , and mira katek ..

~ lots of hugs , sashaswifts

|| 11:17 PM

i'm sorry to my sanchio's . i'm not blaming you for your faults . but i tak paitao korang . korang yg jnji kter nk tggu sner , but when we came you both dah tkder , yet we still accept it tao :'(
then you both perg complain pt org ckap kter paitao , i was like " huh ? "
saper yg paitao saper , you blng i uh .
i tkder niat nk paitao pon . i tau i lmbt , i was like fcuking rush cmer bus jer yg dtang lmbt . korang pon kner fham uh . bus tu bkan bpak i nyer bus , ni bpak org nyer sey .
tkkn lah sekelip mate tros bus timbul kn ? aiya . today i tak lepak with korang psal i don wan any further fights with you both . i sayang korang . i'm avoiding , not bcause i hate you both , but i just dont wan fights between us . i tkder mood to lepak psal i tau klau i lpak nari cnferm kter gadoh nyer . and tats why , i'm avoiding , just to keep our friendship flows . i'm sorry guys , but this is the only way to solve . we can talk , but not using VULGARITIES please . i love my sanchio's and my noshiywah's . thnks for making me laugh till wet for all this time .

~loves , sashaswifts .

|| 7:41 AM

editing my blog , blom habes :)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010 || 7:19 AM

i dont blame you for hurting me , cause i know you dindt mean to .
i hate you , at those times when you put tears on my face .
but i love you at all times when you're with me .
you're different in a way , a special way which makes me admire you so much .
and its bcause you own that special thing that make my mind go upside down .
however , i still wish you could be my last man , can ?
i'm being tied to a bond within you , which i force to let go , but it just wont broke .
i'm not loving for not bcause of what you have , but beyond it ,
i love you bcause you got that special heart which other guys dont own it .
loves , you make my fairytales go reality .
only you , the only person i admired soo much .
the first person , who makes my heart melt and crash .
and he's the only cure to my symptoms .
the only person who can make me smile ,
is only you .
thnks for all , i still love you though for so many excuses that are blocking us .
my hero , my only remedy , my only reasons to my everything .
envy me , i'm yours .
i swear , i still had my love with my spiderman ~
i'm trying my best , to take us bck to where we bfore .
a state where you and me ,
together . and not even a single person who's trying to block our way .
i want you to be there for me anytime , and love me no matter what , can ?
you're the only answer from my prayers above .
may god bless us both . amin .
i sayng you .. ^^

Tuesday, May 11, 2010 || 3:09 AM

asking you for breaks is not an easy thing to do . but its the most toughest challenge i had to faced . for 3 times i kept asking you for break and thnks to you , you had save our relationship from falling apart . you know , that i cnt live my day without you although i've been saying that i hate you . sometimes , i do hate your attitude . and i hate myself too for being so stubborn . i hate myself , for hurting you . i realise it . i feel like giving up in love . i had this complicated situation with him . and i really cnt bare to hold it up anymore . i love the way you cheer me up . i love the way you do that make me smile myself . i love your smile the most . you've been wonderfull in all that you can be . i can say i want to give up . i felt like this gonna be the end . i just cant do this anymore . but i still love you . i've been stucking on this sadness , i've been drowning , i''ve been wiping . and my eyes are too tired to take it all . i've been crying . looking at our pictures , make me felt like i'm dying . i just cnt bare it . why must love exist ? i know you're hurting too . i've not been doing my duty as your lover . for all this time , questions had been crowding inside my mind . i'm changing for the better , but it came out to be worsens than bfore . i've been laughing , but inside i'm crying . seeing you smile , laugh . i felt happy too . but i'm worried . i alwys turn to the other side to wipe my tears away from flowing . i dont want you to see cause i know you care . and i dont wan to . i wan you to think and feel what i felt . i've been enjoying every little seconds with you . and it's great . i had shared everything with you , but you turns out to be moodless . i dont blame you , i know that my story is too boring to be heard . i know , i failed to do my duty . i've been telling all this story , cause i though you can be my hearing pal , but you dont . i'm doing this so that i can make that moments to be as joyfull as bfore . but still you're the best . i'm trying my best , sharing all i had in my lifetime with you . and its great stepping my path with you . thnks for all . i know , i flirt bfore . i post this to blog , so that people can see how complicated i am to be me . having my friends around me , its not enough . but when there's you , i had more than enough . cause only you who willing to stay with me , sharing each others love . i cant be holding my friends hand , like we does . i cnt be kissing and hugging my friends like wat we ussually do cause people will think we are lesbian . and thats why , when there's you i can do anything i wan . i'm trying to take us back to whre we were bfore . this time anniversary , you make me cry , but atleast i'm realise with my mistake . and i'm sorry . soon , i'll delete my blog . i buat gni bkan aper , i buat psal untok kesenagan antare kite .i tknk gadoh . and i sedar , you saket hati jgak dgan perangai i yg sguh control terhadap you . tpy aper i nk buat ? i've been trying all , wat else i can do to make us lasts ? i think i've been over control . i'm sorry dear . i know for all this time its my fault . and i've been blaming you . its my fault . its my fault why we're like this . and sometimes i felt like i'm out of you . sguh , i nk you fham dgan keadaan i . i tau i bersalah . i tau i mrepek . and i know i'm not that good for you . i know i cant own that big love for you like you does . i know i cant have that perfect figure for you to see . i'm bad . i want to let you away from suffering , but the only way is to let you go . i cnt . i still love you . i'm sorry for all . its my fault .

Monday, May 10, 2010 || 1:45 AM

happy 5 months anniversary bby . i sayang youu ^^

this two sunshines of mine ^^

|| 1:14 AM

bck from lepak with this two cute pigs of mine ^^ erza and iQah the noshiywah's were with us too . nie due sanchio , make me laugh like fuck . aperlgy my lil'sunshine ^^ hha . teman nia go potong rmbut dier spike , hha . jiwer i kn b ? yeah . kter smer rambt . spike . yeah . hha . then took pics pt toilet . then go JP , nia peh duit tgah loaded ! hha . duit tabung nmernye . then after go jp kter ddok satu blok nie tktau aper number tu blok . bfore that kter mkan pt ANANAS . lpak blok stu , nmpk nie due couple ber EHEM EHEM . siak . tkde privacy lngsung . dah tau ader kter mseh bleh sambong . kter ddok dkat nan dier lgy . so like fcuk ? muke pecah dok tu duer . yg lelaki rambot dier mcm bby . hha . dorang pon ckap . skali taktau ingt hensem , skali pndang mak kau ! mulot senget ! hha . no offence . tk menghine , just telling you all . rambot jer hensem . muke ? klau nk tau lebih tnyer sunshine i tu yg suke comment2 org . hha . kn b ? LOLS . nyanyi2 , joget , bobal . then satu part nie , tu laki ckap kter mrepek . then si mira katek ckap " dier yg mrepek , tk sedar ! " then tu laki ckap "lek uh ! " than i bingit i say gni tau " TAIK !!! " tros dier senyap . hha . then all laugh like fcuk sia . dgan my suare ganas gtu . bby knows me well how my reaction looks like when i say the word " TAIK !!! " hha . kn b kn ? kay , i rinduu spiderman i sguh . and i had soo much fun with them. i love them ^^ thnks for cheering me up .

Labels: i sayangg nia dgan sunshine i ^^, the sanchio's i punyer

Saturday, May 8, 2010 || 10:36 AM

i rinduu nia chikaro nagn sunshine i . credits to nia for my layouts ^^ sunshine , i rinduu you luh minahrepp ^^

hha . minahreepp , mon bgy i hug yg tight kay b ? nia , i nk dry you jgak tau tau !

kk . spiderman , remember this * i hate it when i saw you looking at chicks !*

walau aper pon i ttap sygkn spiderman i ^^ sumpah .

|| 7:28 AM

i sayangg youu . sumpah . b , did i ever said that i hate you ?

thre's a time when i say that , but i dint mean it .

i hate your attitude that is hurting me , but i love you . soo much .

its pssibly to hard for me to face it alone sometimes , and i dont even bare , but yet i'm pulling myself as high as i can .

i'm doing this , cause i want to stay with you , forever .

i wish i could hold you , forever . myb .

i want to see you laugh when ur with me .

i don even wish to see you cry .

i wan to hear u whisper saying to me that you love me .

i wan to see you smile .

you did make me laugh , you did make me smile . but do you feel the flow when ur with me ?

thnks for all the sacrifices syg . how wonderfull and glad i am to be yours .

its to hard for me to explain all . and i hope this words may describe all .

i'm trying to be your best among all of your ex . but i failed .

this monday , our 5 months . how happy i am , we've gone this far . not far , myb more far can b ?

i'm soorry for watever i've done that are wrong in ur eyes .

i dont mean to do it . but if i mean it . wat for i love you ? wat i get ? nothing right ?

myb its just my stupid sensitive fault . i know i'm wrong .

i'm doing this bcause i'm avoiding you from running away .

can i be yours forever b ?

Tuesday, May 4, 2010 || 7:42 PM

blog aku sguh luh boring to see ! nk carik layouts susah ! bkan susah luh bt i'm choosy .

err . midyear is coming ,

i had no time nk update ker nk lawakn blog i . but after that i promise cnferm i makeover blog i nie kay .

wish me luck everyone ^^

|| 6:28 AM

heho ^^ back ! meet bby tdy and smlm . smlm go his house , blahblahblah maen WWE lgy . had fun . so much fun kn bby ? i still got those butterflies inside my stomach . i miss bby :'(

ther's so much laughter we had until i dint end up with tears again . i hope it wont happen so .

i want this to continue can ? next mon 5 months kn ?

bb , the first time i had step into relationship this long .

once i had you in my life , i felt like i want you till my death .

i love you too much . i wan you to be the last ever , no one is gonna be after you .

sometimes i'm mad with watever stuffs , i do it bcause i don wan you to run away .

but i'm proud to say i'm yours .

b , you tkmo bcer cepat2 aye ! jage you ! bsok i soal you bnyk ! btw , my ppd is low and gonna top-up SOON !!

tomorrow myb ? i think so . or the day after tomorrow ? or the day after tomorrow punyer tomorrow . haha

took mny pic smlm . one of those pic has been uploaded up there .

NO LINK , isnt it ? hha

kay , bby is cute . msti korang ckap mepek ! hha . korang yg mrepek sial !

korang mepek isap pepek uh !

okay , i hate backstabbers ! skali aku stab hang !

aku jdy wonder-woman ! atau catwoman !

cool yo ! hha . kn sexy sket ?!

now , no more chances to bitch ! i dah tknk LEMBUT lgy . i nk desrve what i deserve ! faham ?

eka , bgy i hug tdy pt skolah . hug dier bkan maen tight lgy . okay , i sayang sunshine i ^^

and lastly ~ i sayanng spiderman i soo much .

bb , you bcer nie jgan lupe tido siang okay ?!!!

tata ! ILOVEYOU BB !

~ ur my sweetest dream bby . my most wonderfull fairytale .

remember how we promised each other outside my lift ?

Sunday, May 2, 2010 || 6:25 PM

i may not be perfect or being a special person to someone .

i may not have the looks that you wanted me too ,

i dont have the attitude that you all matreps catch for .

i aint a minahrep

i'm a decent girl , with my smile . i dont shout like hell to any person .

i dont stare up-down . i smile .

i don ask for numb from guys , i let the guys come and go .

let love catch me , not i catch love .

i got my loved ones bside me .

i got my spiderman , and my lil'sunshine .

i dont personlaise that bitch looking face , cause dont want to .

i let my self look bad , so people wont judge me as 'step lawa .'

but people judge me in other wrong way .

i may look blur and alwys give in for people to bully me .

i let them be , cause i care for their feelings . but do they ?

i dont care .

let me be bully by them rather than people judge me .

i'm special in other way , and you guys didnt see it .

only my spiderman , who understnds me well . no other who could .

i blieve in karma .

bitches who trying to stole bby away , one day , i'll steal him bck .

some people are just too jealous with me .

praising me like hell , taking advantages .

i wont give in .

i may be talk sial to bitches .

i do it bcause they want it . true ?

i may be like fucking BAD .

until they judge me minahrep .

but i'm not .

mood swing come and go , correct ?

i'm a human being too , so wats wrong if i scold people ?

why must i kept silence when people is taking advantages of me ?

i'm kind ,

you all will conferm say " terbalik sia dunie nie !"

but when i say that me myself are selenger .

conferm you all will say " baru kau sedar ! muke dah pecah !"

correct ?

why dont people understnd wat i feel being JUDGE like that ?!

do they have their heart with them ?

am i so ugly until they say that bad ?

but why guys come asking for my numb rather than them who saying that i'm ugly ?

hahaha

i'm pretty awesome too correct ?

people who have the looks , says that i'm pretty .

but people yg muke hancur , says that i'm PECAHCOS !

myb their just too jealous of me ?!

hha .

bby love me , cause i'm not a minahrep .

and i love bby , cause bby is sacrificing everything .

i syg my sunshine bcause she's there for me .

although she's a minahrep , but she does not judge me .

she makes me laugh and she wipe off all the stress i had in my mind .

and i love my bby the most .

the sweetest thing i had ever had .

Saturday, May 1, 2010 || 8:27 PM

smlm meet bby . fun , but not so . but we had much laughter after all . go his house , mkan ice-kachang . tktau nk g mner . then naek bus g westpark . the pictures above are taken at bus . okay , kter ketawe at each other . ddok westpark , bobal mcm biaser . then kiter asyk bahas psal 'astroboy' ! hha . i say yg astroboy colour biru , mati2 tknk dgar ckap bby . hha . DEGIL ! then atlast i go check pt google astroboy colour putih . okay , bby i paisey !

ermm , nothing to elaborate more . and nothing seems to change between us . everything goes smoothly , but thre's something aint right about my feelings . thnks for the joyous memories bby . i sayang you .

btw , soon i'm gonna be the heart shape girl ! watch my hair , soon ......