asking you for breaks is not an easy thing to do . but its the most toughest challenge i had to faced . for 3 times i kept asking you for break and thnks to you , you had save our relationship from falling apart . you know , that i cnt live my day without you although i've been saying that i hate you . sometimes , i do hate your attitude . and i hate myself too for being so stubborn . i hate myself , for hurting you . i realise it . i feel like giving up in love . i had this complicated situation with him . and i really cnt bare to hold it up anymore . i love the way you cheer me up . i love the way you do that make me smile myself . i love your smile the most . you've been wonderfull in all that you can be . i can say i want to give up . i felt like this gonna be the end . i just cant do this anymore . but i still love you . i've been stucking on this sadness , i've been drowning , i''ve been wiping . and my eyes are too tired to take it all . i've been crying . looking at our pictures , make me felt like i'm dying . i just cnt bare it . why must love exist ? i know you're hurting too . i've not been doing my duty as your lover . for all this time , questions had been crowding inside my mind . i'm changing for the better , but it came out to be worsens than bfore . i've been laughing , but inside i'm crying . seeing you smile , laugh . i felt happy too . but i'm worried . i alwys turn to the other side to wipe my tears away from flowing . i dont want you to see cause i know you care . and i dont wan to . i wan you to think and feel what i felt . i've been enjoying every little seconds with you . and it's great . i had shared everything with you , but you turns out to be moodless . i dont blame you , i know that my story is too boring to be heard . i know , i failed to do my duty . i've been telling all this story , cause i though you can be my hearing pal , but you dont . i'm doing this so that i can make that moments to be as joyfull as bfore . but still you're the best . i'm trying my best , sharing all i had in my lifetime with you . and its great stepping my path with you . thnks for all . i know , i flirt bfore . i post this to blog , so that people can see how complicated i am to be me . having my friends around me , its not enough . but when there's you , i had more than enough . cause only you who willing to stay with me , sharing each others love . i cant be holding my friends hand , like we does . i cnt be kissing and hugging my friends like wat we ussually do cause people will think we are lesbian . and thats why , when there's you i can do anything i wan . i'm trying to take us back to whre we were bfore . this time anniversary , you make me cry , but atleast i'm realise with my mistake . and i'm sorry . soon , i'll delete my blog . i buat gni bkan aper , i buat psal untok kesenagan antare kite .i tknk gadoh . and i sedar , you saket hati jgak dgan perangai i yg sguh control terhadap you . tpy aper i nk buat ? i've been trying all , wat else i can do to make us lasts ? i think i've been over control . i'm sorry dear . i know for all this time its my fault . and i've been blaming you . its my fault . its my fault why we're like this . and sometimes i felt like i'm out of you . sguh , i nk you fham dgan keadaan i . i tau i bersalah . i tau i mrepek . and i know i'm not that good for you . i know i cant own that big love for you like you does . i know i cant have that perfect figure for you to see . i'm bad . i want to let you away from suffering , but the only way is to let you go . i cnt . i still love you . i'm sorry for all . its my fault .
