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people , i'm inactive sesangat . and its seems like my blog nk mati ! but wait till next month , i'll update more . IMY , all *blowkisses*

ever wonder how pain it was watching you crying ? and did you ever wonder how pain i am in my shoes ? when all i do is to watch you , and yell . where all my moods keep swings all by then . and where my confidence lost when you've changed . i'm trying . i've been seeking . an attention from you . but you wouldnt care . i dont need you to follow what i says , but to hear what i says . cause i only have you to rely on . remember ? once i've told you , you're my everything that i had ever wished for . i dont need a second man to be my life partner . i dont wished the past to repeat , but it keeps haunting me . yet i'm still the way i am supposed to be . i still label you my 'onlyLover' . i've promised , and till now i kept that . it hurts so much when you say that you understnd me . and you're hurt too when i say that i understnd you . both parties are in the wrong side . where you keep turning left and i keep turning right . where we supposed to be together . and yet we dont . i'm trying to fix it all , but you just wont listen . i need you the most , but you keep running away . and that's when you pretend that's everythings' alright . i dont wan to beg for ure love , i want it to be given by not begging . given sincerely . please understand how the situation are between us , where the bond keep breaking us up . i'm sorry for everything i've done bby . i still love you . 8 months ? will we ? hope so :'( wish everything will be as fine as the way we are bfore . dear , i dindnt mean it . i still love you , SpiderMan .

i'm the one who cries for you even when you're in a situation . i don care what they say about us as long as i'm still with you . neither nor in the other side , i'm dissapoint . deciding which is true . as i know that i can trust you . people hate us the way we are . but i kept on throwing those negatives comment . and yet you make those thing which i dont expect it to be . listen to me , the way i say . watched me , the way i cried . cant you see we're drifting ? we had so many laughs together , but inside , does we smile at our own ? does we reflect our own mistakes which makes us becoming more and more apart ? i dont wish you to know by this . but i wished you could know by yourself . i didnt expect you to asked me whats your mistakes are , but i want you to reflect . please dont make me cry infront of you , cause i cant keep beholding my tears from flowing . as i cant stand how much pain i am suffering .
~i'm sorry if i'm the one who creates those troubles between us . not that i want it too . but my emotions and my ego keep telling me to yell at you . i'm sorry , if you're hurting too . i dint mean it after all . i still love you . love you more than other does . SpiderMan .
our 7 monthsary is near . wished us all the best . may god bless our relationship . amin .