i had ENOUGH .
dont blame me if i'm not there . dont blame me if i dont care .you chose this way to be it . and let just be it . this is what you want ?
lets make it up your way .
i fucking
DONT CARE what will happen next .
because i had enough in the
PREVIOUS of my life .
I HAD ENOUGH DAMN FROM YOU .i dont care what will people say , let them be .
mad huh ?
asking why do i post such things in my blog ?
because of you . i keep crying all day long .
i cant even put my thinking on others and i cant even get to laugh .
i
fake a smile to everyone surround me .
the feeling of sadness keep haunting me .
for a
WEEK , i've cried .
i wished not to , but it just flow .
and you know what ?
everyone says
i'm STUPID .
i realise i am ,
FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME , I AM .everyone keep asking me
TO LET GO .but do i ?
i cant even imagine how my life are without you ?
I've been with you for months .
and i wished that i could be with you when the clock strike 12 .(31.12.10)
god didn't answer me .
but god shows me what you are upto next .
i realise i am
STUPID .
you did changed , you did hear every of my words .
but do you care ?
you did not repeat your mistakes , but you make a
NEW mistake .
and you know what ? , I'm
TIRED .
people told me " be strong "
i replied "i cant"
and the answer for every questions that people had been asking for is
that
ILOVEHIM , easy .
he make me
TRUST him .
he make me
LOVE him .
he make me
MISS him .
he does
HURT me .
but yet ,
ISTILLLOVEHIM .
he don't blame me for my wrongdoings .
and all he can say is that he trust me .
i'm not happy either . not at all .
i cried . although he say he
TRUST me .
because he didnt seems like to care what am i doing on my daily days .
he didnt even want to care .
then who am i to you huh ? a doll ?
a
BABI doll maybe ? funny huh ?
you weren't like this before . i've been saying this for
TONS OF TIMES !were you tired of hearing and seeing us in this way ?
were you ?
or you did not realise ?
let me tell you one thing .
you have
HURT me .
once again .
you have
HURT me .
not
ONCE , not
TWICE , not
THRICE .but
TONS .is my heart a TOY to you ?
a toy for you to play with ?
you know what ?
am i a statue in your eyes ? a statue with
NO FEELINGS ?or a
DOLL ?
then who are THEM to you ?
your fairygodwifys' ?
oh god .
you've played a
GAME .and the game its like this .
kite jumpe , kite happy .
kite tak jumpe , i tak happy .
kdg kite jumpe kite gadoh .
kdg kite tk jumpe pon kite gadoh .
kite gadoh , i kesah , you maaf . tpy ade you kesah ?
masalah dah selesai , tpy ade lagy Masalah baru .
and i'm the one who needs to
PETPOTPETPOT .then you ? keep quiet all the time ?
i'm the one who needs to tegur then you realise .
dah realise , ad baru lgy .
not from this maybe .
its from YOUR FCUKING
FACEBOOK !
ouh , and thats the reason why you keep telling me fb gerek ?
gerek kn ?
you've broken up a promise .
( i cant tell )
and even you changed since you got your facebook .
oh my .
sket hati tau tk bler i tgok fb you .
i dont want to cry , cause i had enough from yesterday(s) .
but my heart pumping as if i'm racing .
my eyes boiling .
my body is cooling when the situation is hot .
my tears keep flowing and flowing .
oh my ,
devastated .but thanks .
you've teached me a lesson.
and , please dont trust me too much , you'll regret .
now , all we had is gone .
and all we had is , asked yourself !
i dont wished to leave but you keep forcing me to .
i still love you , as much as i could .
but do you care ?
i dont want us to get separated by all this .
i believe we are strong , dont we ?
we are strong before .
but now ?
are we still strong as how we are before ?
and you keep telling me not to love you too much .
and when i asked whats the reason are when you told me those hurting words .
you changed your topic .
and again , i'm hurt .
again and again .
until today .
where is my old SPIDERMAN huh ?
do you realise nowadays i didnt label you as my SpiderMan anymore ?
you want to know why ?
because i know my SpiderMan well .
my SpiderMan is not like this before .
my SpiderMan has gone . i'm still searching for my old SpiderMan .
SpiderMan , would you ever come back and tell me that you still love me like how you does before ?
would you turn our time like how we does to spend our time like before ?
would you maked me laugh again ?
would you still label me as you FairyGodWify ?
would you care for me like how you are bfore ?
would you ever stare me into my eyes again ?
would you be there whenever i need you , without excuses ?
would you ever say you miss me sincerely again ?
oh my . I MISS YOU , you know ?
i miss you so much .
not the Saliyhin Sparks* that i've known now .
but the E'inSpark* i've known before .
i MISS my E'inSpark* , so much . but i HATE my Saliyhin Sparks* so much .
you have changed , and even your name has changed .
everything between us have changed .
even the way we interact now has changed .
even your attitude towards me have changed .
and even YOU have changed .
i miss you . would you turn back time ? SpiderMan ?
please dont fade away .
you've changed since you cut your hair .
you've changed when you make your facebook account .
you've changed when you change your name .
everything about you has changed .
and i has to adapt to the new you .
but i cant . too hard for me to face the reality .
you've changed bby .
open your eyes widely and see whats happening between us .
i miss my E'inSpark* .
SpiderMan , where are you ?
dont blame me if i'm not there . dont blame me if i dont care .
